Tired indeed

So to start with I need to explain why you didnt hear from me yesterday...... I went to work in the morning intending to come home at 5 after seeing my Cambridge consultant and go for a run..... but as you may guess (or if you are on MFP you may have seen) I got to work and they asked me to stay late as they were short staffed... So thats twice this week that I have gone to work for 7am and not got home until 10:30pm..... boy are those some tiring days. And it also worked out that I have worked 36 hours within 3 days :S

So my run didnt happen yesterday. And today I didnt think I was going to get one in...... but I did :)

I went to Nottingham today with my sister and her fiance to try on bridesmaid dresses :) we have finally chosen the dresses :) and I felt very elegant in it and cant wait to stand next to my sister in her wedding dress :)

When I got back it was about 6pm and it was dark by then here in the UK. But My Mum who is also a runner said she was going to go out and why didnt I go with her :) So I did :)

The last time I went running with my Mum I couldnt get to the traffic lights less than a mile away but this time we did one of my longer routes... not THE longest but a longer one :)

 

 

 

 

And I get home to see that my average speed per mile has deffinately gone down :) I was averaging over 12 minutes and now its well and truely under 12 as my first mile was deffinately quicker :)

 

 

I really enjoyed running with my Mum.... I mean she has been running for a long time and could probably run a marathon if she wanted to as she has a couple of times done 12 miles or so...... her usual is around 7 miles most days in a week. She only goes at a slow pace like me and it was really nice to have someone else to run with that I could keep up with or wasnt going to fast for.

 

And what was even better is that Mum was really proud of me :) she kept expecting me to want to walk for a bit or to be slowing down but I kept up with her the whole way :) even at the faster pace that she set :)

 

So I have decided that when I can I am going to go out running with Mum as she keeps me going and we may even get to extend my runs :) as she goes that bit further :)

 

I went out for lunch with everyone today and had a chesse and bacon topped chicken breast with a side salad and jacket potatoe.... it was very yummy and more calories than I aimed but I stayed within my calorie goal.......but I spent most of the day in the car for the 4 hour journey to the bridal shop where we had found they stock THE dresses :)

 

Diet wise:

I felt over the past few days that I have fallen off the wagon a little bit... I have been snacking more than I was when I started and have not really been having my shakes....

 

So I am meeting with Sally tomorrow after work and I will be refocussing my mind on getting fit especially now that I have tried on that bridesmaid dress :)

 

Heres to getting back on track and loosing lots more weight :)

Nature calls

So today I planned to go for a nice long run as I had lots of free time to spare.....

Then I wake up to discover no heating :s the boiler has broken :( no heating on a day that it is 0 degrees C outside :( = one freezing house....

So my day started off by hanging around waiting for the boiler man to come and try and fix it when all I really wanted to be doing was going for a run. By the time he got here and had a look at the boiler I was freezing and resorted to changing into my running gear and warming up while he was still he checking out the boiler. Turns out we need a new fan for the boiler and that it wont be fixed until tomorrow now so its a cold one on the cards tonight :S

Once the boiler man had gone I was straight out there for my run. I started off running really well I and felt like I was doing amazing :) when I hit my first mile through my headphones comes a little voice saying "1.0 miles in 11:17 minutes" I thought it was kidding me and my usual is about 12 minutes but no I was actually running faster :)

I was really looking forward to doing a nice long run and seeing what my time was at the end but half way round I hit 'a wall' Nature called.... I really needed a wee!!!! I couldnt carry on to my full potential with a full bladder even though I went to the loo before I left.........

I was sooo disappointed as who knows how I would have done if I hadnt needed a wee. I may have done my longest run again which I have only managed to do once for one reason or another or I may have done my shorter one at a better pace :( You can see where half way round I really started to drop my time :(

So anyway I muscled round and did (all be it a shorter one than I intended) a full circuit of one of my routes that totalled over 3 miles effectively staying over my 5k target :) so I was happy in that case. I have been trying to find a local 5k race but all the ones coming up are over that and are 10k. hopefully I can muscle my way up to doing those soonish :)

 

 

I am really enjoying going out for my runs... its time on my own time to get any frustration out if I need to.... however I do like having other people to run with me too :).....

 

What I also really like is making new routes :) my normal route is around a circular block that is in a mainly residential area... however I am going to have to start mixing it up a bit and possibly moving away from the circular (ish) pattern and run up one road down the other as the largest run that I have done is the most I can around that route...... todays route was like this... its not the longest one. But I really enjoy it :)

So tomorrow is a rest day technically however I will be at work allllllll day (07:30-21:30) so I will be a very busy bee.... hoping to get a couple of runs in this week and at least one of those days to be my longest route.

Speak soon bloggers

Back to it

So on my nights I really let slip with my shakes and my healthy eating... a lot of sweets and crisps were consumed and more carbs than normal.....

I was also on my period at the time and was carrying more water weight as a result of both aspects... I am always heavier when I am due on and during my period right up until a couple of days afterwards.

So I have finished nights and had a 'normal' nights sleep at night of all things :P and I am feeling more myself again now.

The scales this morning showed me a 15stone 4pounds.... which to me made me feel ace as post nights I had losts 2 of the 4 pounds that I had put on.... So lets get those 2 back off plus some more :)

I went out on a short run today as I have been suffering with my ankles for a couple of days... a normal problem I get every now and again.... Short run today was just under 3 miles... my average mile speed however was a little faster than normal which is an achievement in itself :)

Tomorrow I intend to step on the scales again and see whther some more water weight has come off :P however tea tonight is involving pizza with friends so i very much doubt it...

And then tomorrow I amhoping the weather holds up enough for me to go on a nice long run of around an hour if I can :) as I have nothing else planned for the day and I really want it to happen :)

Who is this person that misses running when she cant go and really looks forward to the next days run :) 6 months ago I hated the thought of even finding my trainers out of the cupboard.

I know its a few days early before the end of the month but I took a few pictures to see If I was making any progress :) not noticing much difference but I am going to take a couple more at the end of the month that are the same as the last lot and really compare them :)

heres todays pictures

 

And I love that I feel I am loosing weight in my face :)

Much hate

I Hate night shifts....

I have been on nights for the past 3 days and one left tonight before I can get myself in the land of the living again rather than feeling like I have turned nocturnal.

Reasons I hate nights: - no exercise
                                    - eating rubbish
                                    - not seeing Mark
                                    - no sleep
the list could go on and on...................

I have been really bad on this set of nights with snacking...especially on sweets and crisps... they have been so busy that I have just needed to grab anything I could when I was pekkish otherwise I wouldnt have eaten at all. I have also felt really unwell whilst being on my period with terrible migranes and the last thing I wanted to think about was how many calories what I have just put in my mouth had.

Im glad tonight is the last one and that I can get back to normality and try and re-lose the 4-5 pounds that I have put on of late.

I have tried adding some more carbohydrates into my diet every few days so that my body doesnt crave them or pile weight on when I do start eating 'normally' again.

Last nights dinner was sweet and sour quorn pieces with brocolli and pasta.

 

But then it all goes to pot when I go to work and there is sweets and crisps and sooooo much temptation....

 

 

So tomorrow morning.... I will get home from my night shift have my milkshake... that I have not had for 3 days because I have been that off track...

 

I will then sleep to catch up on the much required hours that I have missed....

 

 

I am going to  try being on the lowest level for a couple of days which is 3 shakes and 1 meal instead of being on 2 shakes 2 meals just so I can get myself back on track.

 

I will be having a busy week next week that involves monday having a shift starting at 07:30 and finishing at 22:00 (one loooong day) but im hoping to get 3 runs in and really concentrate on my shakes.

 

When I weigh in after my nights I will be able to work out how much weight I have put on after I have got back to a normal routine and the water retention has gone.... hoping it wont be too much and that I can get back on to track towards being under 200 pounds withing a couple of weeks :)

 





Nightowl

So im sat on my night shifts and having spent only 5 hours asleep in the past 2 days i have resorted to the sugar load to help get me through :(

Its not ideal i know but needs must i cannit function at work with ni energy

Hope you all enjoy your beds lol x

What an improvment

I had a really bad day yesterday food wise.... Went out for dinner with friends and had frankie and bennys pizza :( and went round the sisters for a curry in the evening :( .... so I went over my calories allowance...

When I stepped on the scales the other day it said I had a nice loss .... more than I had thought to be honest..... but today after my mega food binge yesterday it said I weighed 5 pounds more :s. Not happy with that.

So anyway today I went out for a run :) and boy was I chuffed with myself again..... I told myself I would go out to make up for my bad day yesterday and that I would try and do my longest one I could manage. And even though I had recently increased the distance I run I managed to up it again :) I did 4.5 miles :)

I couldnt get over it I was so chuffed with myself.... I have told myself that I am going to stick at that distance for a while and try and improve my times for a while but I love that I feel and really getting somewhere with my running :)

I had a much better day calorie wise today :) and a great afternoon being back playing in the jazz band ;) misses playing and being involved cant wait to be involved more again :)

boyahhhh again

So today was a training day at work... and i finished at midday... I went for a brief talk with a friend of mine. It was nice we sat in the park and just talked; you see he told me he has a big crush on me and has done for a while but hasn't and still wont do anything about it because I am with Mark..... He wanted me to know because he didnt want me to think that he had got 'weird' and trying to avoid me. I told him I still want to be his friend if he can stand being around me and that I will try and make things easy for him. I gave him a big hug and told him that i was sorry I didnt feel the same way and that he will be ok.. I think he more fell for the attention I pay to him as a best friend more than the attraction and I told him that.

Anyway besides that I went for a nice run when I got home. Having recently increased my run distance a few days ago I aimed to stick at that length for a while to make sure I was deffinately comfortable with that distance before upping it again soon. But I got to the turning I would normally take having ran the whole way so far.... and I randomly decided to turn left instead of right. This made my run come up to 3.43 miles :) and I still ran all the way home :)

I was sooo impressed with myself again :) I really enjoyed being out for longer too and I find running helps me to forget any worries and to just run :)

 

As you will have all known it was valentines day today. I got a card and a dvd series because me and Mark dont really celebrate it. We sat and snuggled on the sofa watching some tv and just enjoyed a normal evening together :).

I went round to give my Mum a bunch of flowers, you see its her first valentines day since her husband (my step father) died in November last year and she got very emotional. I knew he always baught her flowers of valentines and I went and had a nice cup of tea and a cuddle with my Mum to cheer her up.

Very excited about tomorrow. I'm not going to manage to get a run in but I am going to see my sister in her wedding dress :)

heres to feeling amazing!!!

So I went out for a morning run this morning :)

And I feel amazing because today I have run 3.2 miles....... an increase from 2.75 miles :)

I feel amazing and to be fair I feel like I could even do more when I got back!

also today I stepped on the scales to see a lovely 15 stone 6 :) I could have literally screemed with excitment :)

I couldnt be happier with how this whole process of my weight loss is going! before I have really struggled with loosing any more weight that a few pounds here or there which ALWAYS went back on plus some :(

But I am feeling like this is really the way it works for me and I cant wait until my weight and my measurement get even lower :)

Love to you all!!!!!!!!!

Back to normal just about

So I finished nights yesterday.. and had to go to Marks grandparents for dinner.

I had plenty of vegetables and chicken and only had 1 smallish roast potato and 1 yorshire pudding.

I calculated as many calories as I could on my fitness pal.

Then me and Mark went to the cinema in the evening and I resisited having any nibbles. I had a diet coke and that was it :)

I havent been able to go running for a few days what with being on nights and the awful wind and rain that we have been having here I just havent been able.

Today I have had a pamper day :) I've trimmed my nails and went to the hairdressers and had a lot of my hair cut off.

 

 

So I have noticed at work one of our security guards has been paying more attention to me.... at first I didnt notice but then my colleagues said im always the one he comes to talk to..... turns out he wanted to tell me that he noticed I was loosing weight and he wanted to tell me I look fantastic and to keep it up..... :) nice to be noticed :)

 

 

feel good :)

Sleeping in the daytime

As you may guess im back on night shifts again :( .

I weighed in this morning :D big smiles for 15 stone 10lbs :) im slowly getting there and have now officially lost more than 1 stone in weight.

I dont like how my diet goes when im on nights as it is a case of pick eat during the day when you are awake and at night its so easy to eat rubbish. Im only doing 2 nights this time but my next set is 4 :( . Not going to enjoy that.

I have already been naughty today by eating chocolates :( a few not loads :( but still naughty. And i didnt go out for my run :( . I knew by the time I got home if I didnt go to bed I wouldnt get any sleep before tonight. Hoping that tonight is busy to keep me active :)

This week ive really been quite good with my shakes; could still be better but its still the way I want to do things.

Tonight is quorn with brocolli and caulifower and im realllllllly going to try and not snack overnight.

Fingers crossed :)

oooooo yeahhh

So I went out for a run with my sister today :)

I decided we would do my normal (newly extended) run as I knew how far it was and she hasnt ran for quite a few months-year. So she got to mine and we set off at a 12 minute mile pace :) it was getting dark but we didnt mind :)

We get home in 33 minutes having done 2.75 miles :)

 

I felt really impressed thats only the second time I have run that route and that we even managed to have a little sprint towards the finish :) I feel that after tomorrows run I may be able to increase it just that little bit more up to the 3 miles :).....

 

As I was looking at the history of my runs I was pleasently suprised.... I wanted to take the screen shot of the one oabove and to get to it had to go through my history and discoverd my times had been improving too :)



 

 

 

 

 

So I was really pleased about that :) ....... I also loved running in my new jumper :) no riding up not to hot but not too cold and my arm band with my phone in didnt slip down my arm :)

 

   

 

 

 

Good feeling all round :)

 

Now for a lovely hot shower and some Dinner :)

 



 

New :)

So I went for a social day with my besty :). We went shopping and I bought a new jacket to go running in thats brighter than my hoody I had been wearing :) which means I feel I can go out at dusk time and not worry :)

It was even nicer to buy a smaller size than I normally do :)

Feeling like im really getting the hang of this running malarky

When I got dropped off to meet Mark :) we had to walk back to the car which was up a large hill :/ the last time I walked it I was so out of breath that Mark had to go ahead and get the car. But this time I was able to keep up with Mark and even walk to the very top of the hill he parked his car up :)

Feel a good day today :)

post nights

So the night shifts are over and I am back in the land of the living :)

They have been awful in every aspect of the word. From very a very busy shift friday to a really slow one saturday to a beyond manic one last night!!! I had a patient who defied all the text books known to man last night and was just so poorly I spent practically the entire shift by his side doing different things... antibiotics.... diuretics.... cardiac stabilisers..... everything I could think of.

another thing was I broke my phone :( the creen cracked when I dropped it in an emergency call :( now I have to pay to have it repaired :(

But o well back to the serious bit.... I ate rubbish!!!!!!! I slept really well in the day so I didnt have my normal volume of shakes, I drank plenty of water overnight but not my shakes.

I also had biscuits :( and strawberry laces :( I was a snacky person all over again... I think it was because I didnt eat enough during the day as I was sleeping so well that I got the hunger pangs at night.... I tried making some quorn chicken pieces to snack on but they just werent cutting it. Even made me feel a little nauseous to be honest.

My evening meals have not been great but they have been ok. With the cambridge diet I am supposed to have a portion of protien high food with some green vegetables/salad as my main meal of the day and shakes for the rest. Well due to my cauliflower and brocolli going off in the fridge even though the sell by date well within date ( which i was not impresed about) I had to resort to other things.

Monday My brocolli was still usable :) I had quorn style chicke pieces and brocolli with a naughty bit of boiled rice. I am not supposed to have rice but this was my way of trying to ensure I had some energy for the night.

Saturday I was really craving a casserole sort of dish. I dry fried some chicken in soy sauce. Added chopped tomotoes peas and some herbs and spices. It takes amazing and id made enough for 2 days so I had it sunday as well. Now im not supposed to have any of this apart from the chicken accroding to Cambridge but as I have said already before If I stuck to cambridge I feel it would discourage me from eating properly in the future so I have changed my eating habbits to healthier food but adjust it little bits according to the Cambridge Diet.

 

My boyfriend Mark made blueberyy muffins over the weekend and I even treated myself to one of those :) it was gorgeous ( I did pick the smallest I could ) but it was a toss up between the plum or the cake :)

 

 

HOLD UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I forgot the best bit :) I have not stepped on the evil weighing machine for a good week or so so after my nights it was a pleasant suprise to see I was at 15stone 11. A loss of 2lbs :) I doubt that it from my nights as the norm is to at least stay the same but it was nice to have that boost. Back on track tomorrow with the running :)

A blow out/ MIA

Ive been a bit MIA and for that im sorry :( but i have still been logging on MFP :)

So last night was my much awaited work do that we didnt have before chirstmas :) It was a combined post chirstmas, people leaving, birthday party for a 30th and a 21st. It was an amazing night that involved me drinking and eating far and above over what I should have done. I think I pretty much blew my calories for a week.

O well yesterday is gone I had a great time and it also made me even more determined to lose more weight so that I can wear nice outfits and go out again :)

Today I start night shifts for 3 nights and that means the munchies and the lack of exercise makes me normally put on weight :( last time I simply stayed the same and this time I at least aim to do that again.

I went out for a run this morning :) to wear myself out ready to go to sleep :) and as I said in my previous post I aimed to steadily increase my distance over the next few weeks :)

And I did :) I feel so impressed with myself today :) I ran 2.75 miles today :) I didnt need to stop and I did it in a fairly good time too :)

I never thought that in a few more runs I would be running 3 miles or even 5K so I am really impressed.

I am going to try and blog more again as It deffinately helps with my focus even if noone is reading it :)

For now!!! xx

Going the extra

 

So I went out for a run this morning and decuded that I would increase it just that little bit. I run the loop around the block and there is many ways I could increase it. I went with just a small extra bit which made my normally 2.15 miles to 2.38 and I chose due to the fact that its only been a couple of times that I have ran my first run without stopping :)

 

Over the next few times I aim to extend my run to 3 miles but give  me time huh?

 

Something i didnt realise i never posted from the 30th Jan