Ups and downs

Hating them

So I had a really good beginning of the week and the end has been awful....

Night shifts and lack of determination are the culprits.

I finish my nights in a few hours time and am back to work on a 16 hour day tomorrow :( and wednesday :(

After this I have 3 consecutive days off and am going to go for a run each day!!! Ive made mark force me to if im lacking in motivation :) and im just going to really try to concentrate on my shakes again !!!

I know when I see a difference ill be more determined again but its getting to that point first :(

Anyway keep it up guys :)

Whoops and walks

So I said to myself after my run that I was back on track :s

Well it went out the windiw a little

I had a date with some girlfriends that had been booked for soooooo long as one has had a baby (my gorgeous god daughter) and with me working its been hard to tie us all down together. ... so we ate out.... then yesterday was a busy busy day left my house at 8am and got back at midnight.... so it was grab what I could to eat and that involved chicken nuggets from Mcdonalds and my lovely boyfriend tlook me out for dinner. ...

So all in all my food for the past few days has been beyond rubbish :( but night shifts start tonight so it's not going to be too bad a day today or tomorrow x

Been for a lovely walk through the forest and around the lake  :) so that burnt a bit of it off :)

Have a nice day guys :)

NSV

Today has been a good day :)

I have had not one but two things to really make me feel proud of myself :)

So the eating front hasnt been what it could be admittedly.  I have been a bit 'snacky' and since discovering it have been craving the Cadburys marvelous creations chocolate..... and marvelous it is.... tooo marvelous to the point I could quite easily eat a whole bar in one go.  

But now on to the NSV's

Today was my second time going out for a run since before my holiday and injury at work. Before then it has been few and far between that I hadca good run rather than walk... anyway I digress....... so today my second time out and I had my determined head ob right from tge first mile :) today I ran my longest route 5.3 miles without stopping :) albeit a bit of a slower pace than before but I DID IT :) WITHOUT STOPPING :) ....... so that was NSV numero uno.....

Second??? Well  :) normally if there is evwn a hint of bad weather..... I flake out... I give up.... but today that wasn't on the cards :)  I pushed through :) even doing the longer run in the rain :) I felt soooo good when I got back :)

Feeling refreshed and more determined again :) YAYYYY

Holiday

So ive been on holiday and thats my explanation for not blogging :)

So i was aiming before my holiday to feel comfortable in my body and to get the dreaded swimwear out.

Welllllllll............

I got the swimwear out :) i may not be at my goal or feel competely myself in such a small amount of clothes but i got the bikini out all the same.

I felt ok in it and i knew that noone else knew me :)

Back to normality monday and time for me to focus on my running and eating to get into those 2 beautiful bridesmaids dresses :)

Keep going bloggers :)

X

Holidays

Im aware ive again been rather distant. I really lost touch with myself and due to injury at work have not really been myself

But now im getting back to it after I get back off holibobs

So ok im going on holiday... and when I get back im really getting my ass in gear for these weddings.

Back to running

Back to cambridge diet

Back to being the girl I want to be

The girl I want to be for Mark and my family

The girl I once was

So my bloggers heres to my holiday and a new new start when I get back

Progress???

So its today turned to the 5th month of the year already :o I dont know where the days are going to be honest...

So as usual i have taken some pictures at the end of the month and heres some of them.

I am feeling different but sometimes i cant see it. So these pictures help me to compare it :) i am however going to restart taking my measurements and using them to compare too :)

I have been using my fitbit for a few days now :) i do indeed love it :)

On a quiet 14 hour shift at work i did over 12000 steps... i dread to think what it would be if it was a busy day :s i guess with me wearing it every day we shall soon find out huh??

I have been back into my running as work allows :) and today due to the hot weather im waiting until early evening before going out so that its not too hot.

I havnt been as good this week as i could have been and the couple of pound weight gain is something to show for this... weigh in with Sally today and i didnt 'beat about the bush' about it... but im crossing my fingers for this week to come that i do lots better :)

A run to make you feel good :)

So today after my 16 hour day yesterday... I get a day off :) and what a nice day it has been too :) I am loving that the weather has improved now and Im hoping that we get it to stay for a while :)

I got up when I wanted to today apart from waking up to say goodbye to Mark as he left for work. I went back to bed with my cup of tea and my breakfat shake.

Once I was up and dressed I went out in the car to fill up with fuel and then round to my Mum's

She had a little pressie for me in the form of a FITBIT :) it made me smile a lot :) and i couldnt wait to sync it with MFP :) I have heard a lot of people talking about their fitbits and I was finally able to see what all the hype was about :)

So I sync it and get a little confused and decide its time for a run :) after my 4.71 mile run the other day I felt really good and couldnt wait to get back out there :)

So off I went on my route that I did the other day except I got to a point and instead of going left up the hill I went right and round along the road which eventually took me to the same place that going left up the hill would have done :) extending my entire route to a very pleasing 5.22 miles

YAY ME!!!!!

Here is my route for today :) I dont care that it took me more than an hour because while im still getting back into my running I am taking it slowly until I can run without having to stop the once or twice that I did today and will work on my pace again soon :)

 

Food has been a good day today too :) After a weekend of dinner out and far too much bread for my liking I have felt very bloated and have put weight back on this weekend but I am looking forward to using my fitbit and my running to come :)

Feeling good :)